Fear, Itself

Yes, I’m a Buffy fan. No, this isn’t going to be a post waxing poetic on how awesome the episode of the same title is.

Today, I want to discuss fear.

On Friday, November 13th, something terrible happened in Paris, France. We already know the story, so I won’t rehash. Several other instances of terror happened as well. Terror. Terrorist. Fear.

I’ve seen my friends…decent people who are normally loving and giving, turn angry and frightened. I don’t blame them. We should be angry and maybe a little frightened – but directed at the right people. It shouldn’t stop us from being who we are normally.

Fear does a lot to us. It paralyzes us. It keeps us from living up to our full potentials. It keeps us from becoming…more.

Today, I challenge you to be more. Do something brave. You don’t have to put yourself into mortal danger, but do something extraordinary. Don’t let fear hold you back.

In the Days After

Halloween is my favorite holiday, during my favorite season. There’s a special…feeling…to fall. Something that awakens something in me, and makes me feel extra creative. For the past couple Halloweens, I’ve been recovering from two separate horseback riding incidents. No parties. No dressing up. Just recuperating from first, a concussion, and second, a broken back. This Halloween, I got to celebrate one year, injury free! I currently work at a craft store that allowed its employees to dress up the entire week before. I was able to pull out my Renaissance festival attire for one day, and for Halloween itself, I got to do something very special that I’d been planning to unveil at a convention.

The Dean Winchester costume.

My co-workers’ faces were PRICELESS. They didn’t recognize me. Heck, I was convincing enough from afar that a couple though I really was a dude (um…thanks?). Mission accomplished.

Now, Halloween is over, and everything’s back to “normal.” Well, as normal as Christmas EVERYWHERE can be. Ah…the joy of working in a craft store.

In my writing life, I’m doing something very much NOT normal. November 1st marked the start of NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). I’d decided earlier that I wouldn’t participate. I had too much to do, with editing one novel and trying to sell another. But then I realized that if I could pull off an awesome cosplay, why not try to pull off a new novel? Maybe it’ll be the kick in the pants I need. So…I’m in. If anyone else is doing NaNo, I’m simply “MaryLGibbs” on the site.

This week is going to be a double post week. Tune in Wednesday when I announce the other cool news! In the meantime, here’s a picture of me dressed as Dean:

Dean Winchester (excuse the messy room. We're redecorating). Including the Mark of Cain.
Dean Winchester (excuse the messy room. We’re redecorating). Including the Mark of Cain.